just sticking my head up
What I hold back...
holds me baaaaaaaack!.
What I let go
Let's me gooooooooo!
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What I hold back...
IT IS ABOUT YOU...
NO... It’s about God... and my acting in His will !!!!
Regardless of what others say, think, understand or even know...
I must decide, announce , be and then do what God requires of “ME”.
Encouragement: -When it comes to being the real you...No one else is involved... Just you and God. Stop asking for permission to be what God has made. Stop waiting for consensus. Stop needing to be heard. -- Start deciding what he wants. Announce it in love. Then Be it & Do it!
It’s all about YOU... to Decide, Announce, Be & Do… What He requires of YOU!
SW
Choice is something you only lose when you give it to someone else.
"It is useless to attempt to reason a man out of what he was never reasoned into." Jonathan Swift
The steps have a specific order for a reason... don't get head of yourself.
what are you currently resisting in your relationship with God, wife, others...???
STEP 4 ENCOUNAGEMENT - Owning my choice.
I don’t have to live with my wife. No ifs ands or buts about it. I am free to choose. In fact, I am choosing at this very moment.
I would survive without her. She would survive without me. The kids would survive even if I leave. I cannot make this about them. Blaming them because I am “stuck” is just plain denial.
If my wife was a love machine pumping out love 24/7 at 10,000 gallons a minute...
IT WOULD NEVER FILL ME...
BECAUSE I HAVE HOLES.
Until I deal with the holes, I will remain empty, starving, desperate and addicted to my unhealthy coping mechanisms.
I’VE GOT TO DEAL WITH THE HOLES!
God gave me a free will. I choose to be in a relationship or I choose not to be. If I feel force in a relationship, I may choose to resist, yield or get out of the way. But every moment, I am choosing.
GOD promises to give ME all I need... when I am obedient! He doesn't promise to magically change her into my "Stepford Wife."
I'm not a CR because of my wife! I'm here because of the way I treat her and allow her to treat me!
CONCLUSION
I HAVE TO OWN IT! I have to decide to deal with my holes.
I HAVE TO OWN IT! I have to decide that until I deal with my holes that my relationships will be unsatisfying.
I HAVE TO OWN IT! I have to decide that I must look at my holes... to allow them to be seen... so that God may heal me.
SW
(NEXT: Taking ownership)
Step 4 Encouragement - Seeing the Boy - Finding the Man
What is the payoff of being a child vs. the cost of being an adult?
As Children:
· Women look to their fathers for a hero. They are often left without one & find it difficult to trust and share control with men.
· Men look to their mothers for self worth. They are often left without approval & find it difficult to trust and share control with women.
As Adults:
· Men come to their wives as a child seeking approval & self worth. Men may find dependency or independency as the way to fill the need for approval or deny it; always resenting the need for it and the control it gives their women over them.
· Women come to their husbands as a child seeking a hero. Women may take control or surrender all of it as a way to fill their need for the hero or deny it; always resenting the need for it and the control it gives their men over them.
What is missing?
· Why can’t women give their husbands the approval they seek?
· Why can’t men be the heroes their wives want them to be?
Because We Must Control What Others Think of Us at All Costs...
for we have been hurt!
Our supreme fear is that others see who we fear we have become…
And that they will abandon us.
And so we have hidden our own true selves beneath our addictions.
Our inventory is simply finding OUR OWN TRUE SELVES.
The one God made
The one God loves
The one God has forgiven!
In and through our past conflicts, struggles, triumphs & victories.
LET US SEE THE BOY AND FIND THE MAN ---
LET THE DIGGING BEGIN.
SW
Teach a child to be polite and courteous, and when he grows up, he'll never be able to edge his car onto a freeway. - Old Joke
“Respect is love dressed in everyday clothes.” - poet
PROPOSITION - To know who we are, we must know who we have become.
To be separate, there must be a point where I begin and all others end: an outside and an inside. Everything inside my soul is mine alone. Here are my gifts and talents as well as my flaws and weaknesses. Here too is my free will. These belong to me along with their associated rights and responsibilities. They all reside inside my shape.
When I was defined, my boundaries defined me. Everything outside my shape does not belong to me. I have been kept purposely separate. The outside world and I only meet at my boundaries.
I have been given the free will to make a choice!
My lack of knowledge & respect for my given boundaries has been the root cause of most of my life's problems.
CONCLUSION -
I have come to believe, that knowing myself & knowing my boundaries is a vital step in understanding my relationship with my God and my world.
When I feel far from God,
I have but wandered
Far from my soul.
SW
Greater love hath no man than this,
Luke 16:15 (New International Version)
Prep'd for vacation. Then 12 days in Alaska. Returned home to the news that Mom was going into hospice care with brain cancer. Spent a week dealing with those preparations when she passed away at home unexpectedly on Thursday August 25th at 8am. She was at peace, free of pain, with Dad at her side. We immediately began making arrangements for her memorial. Finally, we have been helping Dad with his adjustment to being alone after 54 years of marriage.
Walking on eggshells? Smashing Eggs? Why do I do it? In order to make an omelet, eggs must be broken but not wasted.
I think god is trying to tell me again... "You are not your career."
Power & Control